So most days I have non-stop thoughts and worries about things that have happened during the past 20 months or more. Usually random and often triggered by something or other. I want it all documented. I want others to be informed and I also want my daughter to see it someday when she is old enough. She is entitled to know the truth of what has happened to us. But, most times, I just can’t sit down and write out long blog posts. I am too drained, too sad and too depleted with all that has happened. So, I have decided that I will start doing short random blog posts for those thoughts and worries. They may be random and / or off topic at times but I feel better once they are out there. I want everyone to know what my ex-husband, his new wife, this Judge and my former adoptive parents have done to my daughter and I. The trauma and permanent damage. It is truly unforgiveable and horribly cruel to rip a little girl away from the mother who has raised her for her entire life due to “finances” and still here I sit, on a “temporary” unconstitutional order, almost 2 full years later. Unable to afford to continue the legal fight and unable to afford to fix all of the legal errors that this Judge has made. Money talks and loving mothers walk in FAMILY court. One day soon I will start naming names in this blog. I am missing my little girl today. I love you and miss you very much, KJ. Love, Mama.